Day 18: 2-22-20

Hi to all the everybodys and nobodys of the world. Only after my bestest friend, Dana, got onto me to start posting more often have I opened this. I'm sorry for going MIA, but I find it hard to write without inspiration. And this so called inspiration only comes knocking on my door after a sad boi moment. I haven't had one of those in a bit due to my lack of emotions at the moment.

    I've refined my problem solving techniques to a T. They consist of three simple steps-

1. Cry yourself a river
2. Build a bridge
3. and Get over it

I thought that I'd talk about something I have no clue about; love. Mostly questions and ideas, but I don't really know. Maybe February is getting to me even though I hate Valentine's day.

I feel like in our day and age love is tossed around without truly understanding it's meaning. SO here's my biggest question:

What is love?

I've always pondered about the definition, knowing in the back of my mind that there isn't a set one. I really wish there was one though, so everyone could understand. The fact that some people just won't see it when it's right in front of their eyes is what makes it so terrifying, but maybe that's what makes it so valuable. Maybe it's the choosing the wrong person that shows us at least what love isn't, so that when you find someone else you can cross out all the bad that they aren't doing; leaving you with things that add up to your own definition of love. A simple math equation. 

Unfortunately, all we can do is wander in the darkness until we find someone who, I don't know,  fills our own world with light, or even just hands us the cord to plug in so that our hearts light up in the same way. Maybe its just searching in the darkness and tripping together, then laughing it off seconds later. Maybe its just being together. The feeling of always having someone you can tell anything and everything to, without the fear of being judged. To be honest, I could be leading you in the completely wrong direction, but this is what I've conjured up from living in this world for 16 years. For those of you who know exactly what love is and can put it in words, why don't you?

Dana suggested that I start my own company for writing sort of. Dream with me for a second okay? There would be different sections for each genre, Romance, Drama, Action, Advice, News, Traveling. It just makes my heart beat faster, so if you're interested lemme know. Please!!!!!! If even one person comes forward I might make a email or something that you can send your application into, but there are rules...

1. You've got to in high school (proof must be included)

2. You've got to commit to writing weekly

3. You've got to have an actual passion for writing

I'm really day dreaming that someone might reply to this, but then I'll actually have to do it. And that's scary, taking your first step to your dreams in real life, because doing it in your head and in reality are quite different. Don't let that stop you though. 

So tell me what your definition of love is, or don't.

Step forward and risk it a little, or don't.

Be the best person you wish to be, or - don't.

Every choice you make is up to you. Even if you can't control what happens, you can control your reaction and how you're going to let it a/effect you. 

"Let's build that bridge over our river of tears, because it's your choice to stay on the other side and dream, to cross it and live that dream, or drown in the sorrow of the constant flooding."

         -The Weird One         

                                                           Your somebody,

                                                                                        

                                                                             Weirdo