Day 17: 12-24-19
Hello to all the everybodys and nobodys of the world. there are so many things I want to pour out through writing, but.... Anyways I've really begun to write for readers and that really wasn't the point of this blog. I started this from some random spark that I got, and I'd like to go back to that. I don't really know for how long I'll be grounded like this, because I love daydreaming. In doing so I tend to get ahead of myself from thinking about a prosperous future. I'm just going to write today. That's all I know right now, but here we go.
If you didn't know I love writing. This love has come from my other love for reading. That probably sounds super confusing but give me a chance to explain. Reading has always given me a chance to be me. The most important part of it to me is being able to escape. It's the closest thing I got to completing an item on my bucket list:
DISCLAIMER: This might not make any sense, and probably jumps all around. My thoughts come quicker than my ability to construct sentences, so you're gonna get what I think is most important to note down.
If you didn't know I love writing. This love has come from my other love for reading. That probably sounds super confusing but give me a chance to explain. Reading has always given me a chance to be me. The most important part of it to me is being able to escape. It's the closest thing I got to completing an item on my bucket list:
Leave without telling anyone
Most teens now days have their very own ways of escaping from the world that surrounds. I guess a stereotypical way is drugs, and I have places that I gotta get to, so that isn't my method. When I'm reading my mind is distracted from my problems that seem unsolvable. As I crack open a book I am transported to a world where I know the problems I'm seeing probably can and will be solved. Pages bounded together and marked with ink are safer to me than reality.
Though that's the reason I read, it really doesn't have much to do with why I write. At times I feel rebellious writing, because my parents don't like it. Being the Asians that they are, they think writing will not take me anywhere while math and science having a 100% chance of doing so. If you didn't really catch on I'm basically a goody-two-shoes. It's not that I don't want to let loose and have fun; it's the illegal speed at which my heart beats when even thinking about doing anything that I don't know the consequences of.
Something about me that you probably need to know is that I fear the unknown or things I do not have control over. I don't really know the phobia name to it, but I do know that I have high blood pressure and a speedy heart rate is not wanted. Along with that it takes quite a large amount of time to calm down.
That really was off topic, so let's get back to my writing thing. You know how you get that sudden urge to do something after watching a bunch of other people do it. Well that's me when it comes to novels or just stories. I want to be able to provide that safe haven I get to others, so I've tried a billion times. I guess I thought it was super easy, and its definitely not.
My poetry just comes out when I'm super emotional and delusional from a need to go to sleep. Almost every time I'm writing it's at night, because my rationality is disappearing. Another reason as to why I write poetry is because I love going back to see how powerful it was when I wake up.
Last but not least, why I write this blog. I've always written diaries from a young age and as I grew I found myself going back and reading about the ridiculous drama and how I felt about it. The drastic change in my mindset about the said dramas is what drew me back every time. I know that this blog is supposed to be about high school, but it's changed to more of a high schooler's mind.
I've never felt content with the title of this blog so I really ( x infinity and beyond) want some other ideas.
Oh and I want to do this new thing where the first photo I add is off something to do with the the day or just to do with the me. Lemme go find one....
TODAY:
There but you're not there



Okay so I added a few more rules:
1. A scenery with a feeling description
2. Quote, poem, saying. anything with words to the right
3. Quote, poem, saying. anything with words to the left
4. Quote, poem, saying. anything with words to the right again
I'm sorry, but I like consistency. Like have you not noticed me switching from 2 intros every blog???
Well this has been quite a long blog, but I feel better after some writing, so it's okay. I'm gonna leave you guys with........something.









I don't know why, but here's a bunch of comebacks or roasts or whatever they are.
I've been thinking bout going into psychology....Thoughts????
Your Somebody,
Weirdo
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